redefining life

I thought 2017 was difficult enough. 2018 was more difficult for me, for my husband, and for our daughter. That was the most difficult year for us.

I have been in the lowest point of my life. There was a time that I thought I lost it all. All hopes and dreams shattered into pieces, turning into ashes. My husband did everything in his power to bring back my sanity.

I found the light and held onto it, rebuilding the hopes and dreams. I survived. That was the bravest thing that I have ever done. I survived. The toughest moment in my life. He felt the same thing too, I think.

I learned things and people that matter to me. I learned that "I will be there" is an overstatement. People say that maybe because they care but people can't always be there. They have their lives too. They have their struggles too. I learned to suck it up. I learned what does it mean by "put your trust only to Allah". Allah stays, people don't.

I wish 2019 is a better year for us. I wish for my fullest recovery. I wish for more blessings from Allah.

Still, 2018 was a good year. I learned to say no firmly, I learned to leave people who bring nothing but toxic in my life, I learned to respect myself more. I learned a lot. 

Good bye, 2018!