Review on Cetaphil Oily cleanser

I have oily face and acne problem. I have been using Cetaphil Oily Cleanser since 2010. I was doing my master's degree back then and I had three part time jobs. It was so stressful and I had worst acne problem. I tried everything and it didn't work out so I went to a pharmacy. The pharmacist recommended me this cleanser and T3 mycin. It has been working well with my skin condition since then.  I feel very clean whenever I use this cleanser. It can be used to cleanse make up too.

I tried to change my facial cleanser a few times and it didn't work. I tried Bio-essence, Body Shop and Hada Labo. None works wonders on my skin as Cetaphil Oily cleanser does.

I used to buy the cleanser from Guardian and Watsons. I stopped buying from those drugstores after I found that this cleanser are sold cheaper in Lazada and Shoppe but prices are different according to stores. To buy this, I normally browse through stores with high rating and labelled as preferred (for Shoppe). From my experience buying from both apps, I paid around RM 37 - RM 39 for a bottle. In Watsons and Guardian, I think a bottle costs us around RM 50.

the end

this isn't the end
as there are always choices
and making choices
is to make life happen
it is something
that we always do

we know
what's the best for our lives

we create our own happiness
sadness may be there
somewhere
along the journey
because
it has to be there
and remember
it will pass

and remember
always

this isn't the end

aisyar.

we live different lives, we have different stories

A friend called and told me about her newborn twins. I was so happy for her. She was waiting for  7 years for the first born. After almost two years, God blessed her with another two children. 

I teased her, asking her, is there a plan for getting a bigger car to fit three carseats for her babies. 

She told me they are just fine with their current cars and they can't afford getting a new, bigger car as they will be paying for two mortgage loans soon. I asked whether or not they would consider to let go one of the mortgages. One of it is a government scheme mortgage loan offered to government servants and it requires no deposit. Hence, she can reject the mortgage offer at anytime before paying deposit. 

She said it would be a loss to let go the house as it will be a good investment. Property in Putrajaya, who wouldn't want it? 

Then she asked me, have we gotten any property and I said no. She told me about the price gets higher every year and I said we don't really bother with it now as we are living with a single wage and my alternative treatment bills is the main focus now. 

We spend 400-600 per month for my alternative treatment, my husband buys take out meals regularly as it is time consuming to cook especially on school nights and he covers for my monthly bills too. Having these, we can't afford getting a new loan. 

She asked me about having cheaper alternative remedies like taking sunnah food for supplement. I told her that my treatment has shown positive improvement and I can't rely on supplements alone as the remedy for my illness.

She seemed understand. 

What I learned from this conversation are; 

1) Different people live different lives and have different priorities.

2) Life is not a competition.

3) Just because we think something is good for us, it doesn't necessarily mean it is good for others too.

4) Some people may not understand well our situations. And, we may not understand well their situations too.

aisyar.

uncertain promises

I really don't appreciate people telling me that they will come to visit when it is uncertain whether they can come or not. For me, it is like making uncertain promises. Promises are meant to be fulfilled. Therefore, it must be certain. If they are certain about something and they plan for it but they can't come because something comes up on that day, it is different. There is an effort in that situation. For me, when they make uncertain promises, it is just like making empty promises. They are not committed into making it happen.

I lost my respect for them.


aisyar.

carthasis

to all moments we've been together
cruising this journey
through unforeseen waves
encountering unusual phases
of
joy and sadness
beauty and ugliness
light and darkness
ease and hardship

for thick and thin

happy anniversary darling.

aisyar.

a note to my daughter

dear my darling
although things have not been easy
you still smiling
you still laughing
you remain cheerful
you are always wonderful
and you are my little helper
my storyteller
painting our memory with wonderful stories
with your honest and innocent belief
and those remind me to always be appreciative

dear my darling
you can be a little rascal
you can be defiant, stubborn
testing our patience
and it feels like ugh!
I feel angry and miffed
and then you become our baby again
looking at us, trying to say sorry
coming to us, hugging us, sobbing
and those remind me that you are still learning

dear my darling
I feel like I have been robbing your childhood
and that brings me misery
and when I say I am sorry
for being unable to do so many things
you always say don't worry
because this is temporary
oh, how much you have grown!
I feel old
and your mind has become mature
and for that I should be grateful
although this is hard, you are still jolly
always bubbly and cheery
and those remind me that I am lucky

dear my darling
live this life a day by day
worry less what will happen after today
think less about yesterday
allow yourself for sadness
for that you appreciate your happiness
acknowledge your fear
for that you know how to be courageous
allow yourself to feel bad
for that you enjoy the taste of pleasure
acknowledge your confusion
for that you know what is confidence
allow yourself to feel weak
for that you know how does strength feel
allow yourself for failure
for that you cherish your triumph
and my darling daughter
always remember
never lose your faith, ever.

aisyar.

redefining life

I thought 2017 was difficult enough. 2018 was more difficult for me, for my husband, and for our daughter. That was the most difficult year for us.

I have been in the lowest point of my life. There was a time that I thought I lost it all. All hopes and dreams shattered into pieces, turning into ashes. My husband did everything in his power to bring back my sanity.

I found the light and held onto it, rebuilding the hopes and dreams. I survived. That was the bravest thing that I have ever done. I survived. The toughest moment in my life. He felt the same thing too, I think.

I learned things and people that matter to me. I learned that "I will be there" is an overstatement. People say that maybe because they care but people can't always be there. They have their lives too. They have their struggles too. I learned to suck it up. I learned what does it mean by "put your trust only to Allah". Allah stays, people don't.

I wish 2019 is a better year for us. I wish for my fullest recovery. I wish for more blessings from Allah.

Still, 2018 was a good year. I learned to say no firmly, I learned to leave people who bring nothing but toxic in my life, I learned to respect myself more. I learned a lot. 

Good bye, 2018!